The Journey Begins

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As people close to me know, I struggle with mental illness. It affects my life both internally and externally. It also affects my family. Mental health is so fragile. Aside from mental illness, the human brain deals with emotions, feelings, stress, memories, worries about the future and so on. In the last year, one really big thing that has helped me in my day-to-day life is meditation. Meditation has allowed me to come to terms with things, helped me learn to love myself, and given me the ability to live in the present by taking things one moment at a time.

Through this website I will be sharing my journey with meditation and helping people to find healthy ways to increase positivity, bring balance to your life, and find ways to get through life more relaxed and with more peace.

Follow me as we discuss de-stress techniques, coping skills, self-care, empowerment, love and kindness, and so much more!




Life can be hard
Life can feel hard
Feeling pulled into the void
Can’t get out

Feeling judged
Nightmares galore
I say I will stop
Take a break

Get pulled back in
What if my life was this?
What if I did this?
What will I be remembered as?

Dawson’s Creek
Trying but not with Duolingo
Socializing and reaching out

I pull away for a second
I see the stormy clouds
They are beautiful
The wind blows strong

I touch the leaves
Smell the pine
See the birds
Breathe the pollen

I sometimes feel shame
Sometimes self compassion
Don’t meditate

It’s a struggle
But then it’s not
A rollercoaster I’m on
A vision not lived out

My brain goes in so many directions
Any given moment is unknown
What will tomorrow bring
What will the next minute bring

This writing
It seems a good ending
A good purpose
But is it? Will it?

Even I don’t know.
What is my meaning?
I want things to change
But then I don’t, I accept how I am

Story of my life


It’s Been Awhile

I’ve been MIA for quite some time. I could say life got in the way but that is only part true. Another reason that I’ve been away from writing here is plain and simple distraction. My mind has been going from one thing to another for quite some time now. But, I was able to pull it together long enough to finally finish my book. It has been something that I have been working on since last year. It took a lot of strength to get it together and put in a way that made me happy. I have wanted to help people for a long time. I want my life to mean something and to be put to good use. I also know how hard it is to go through depression. I know how overwhelming it can be and how it feels to not know what to do to feel better and have no hope.

That is why I decided to write Guide To Coping With Depression. I hope that it can have some affect on someone who may be struggling or know someone who is struggling. It is an easy to understand guide to help get through depressive episodes and meant to be a resource.

You can find it on Amazon here.


Music Relaxation

I have been really stressed and tense this past week since I started a new job. It has taken a lot of mental focus in order to learn everything that I need to succeed. But towards the end of the week I found something that has helped me tremendously: Music! I was changing the car radio station and I came across classical music. I decided to listen to that on the drive home. It made a world of difference. It was soothing and had a good flow. The next morning, I decided to leave it on that station. When I got to work I felt more at ease and less stressed. I ended up having a more productive day. So when you are feeling mentally or physically tired and in need of some de-stress and relaxation, turn on some uplifting tunes! 🙂


Mindfully Aware

Yesterday was not a good day for me. My emotions and depression were both getting bad. But even during this difficult time, I managed to pull myself out of it, even for a little bit, to notice my surroundings. I tried to focus on the present and what was in front of me. The touch of a tree, the view of a mountain, the sound of cars driving and people talking, the smell of flowers. It was during these moments that I felt as if I would be alright. Life was still happening and it wasn’t the end of the world. Thankfully I am feeling better today and hopefully this can help someone to become Mindfully Aware for just a moment. 🙂


How Preparing To Move Has Affected Me

Trigger Warning: Talk of Suicidal Thoughts

We are in the process of relocating our family. It’s something that we’ve thought about for a very long time and have wanted to do. I had been looking forward to this moment for forever now and have done so much research to prepare my mind. But the days or preparing, packing, and cleaning are about to end and we will be on our way to our new location. A place that has more opportunities for growth, more resources for mine and my family’s mental health, more fun things to do, a new scenic view, and much more. But these past few days have been pretty rough.

I have been grumpy and moody, stressed and tense. The other night I found myself up late on my computer and it hit me. Something that tends to happen when I don’t get enough sleep or stay up really late. It is suicidal thoughts. They seem to come from nowhere sometimes. Throughout the day I seem otherwise fine. I’m not sleeping a lot or showing any other symptoms (that I can tell) of depression. But if I lack sleep, it usually shows it’s ugly face. It takes over my brain and my thinking. It tried to really bring me down. There’s no logic in the thought process. Whatever I’m going through at this particular time in my life is not the end of the world. But at that very moment, my brain thinks it is.

But there comes a point where I recognize that those thoughts are only being caused by depression. And for me, not getting enough sleep triggers that depression and puts those thoughts in my head. At that moment of clarity, I tell myself to go to sleep. I make myself go to sleep. My body and brain are making it clear that I need to stop what I am doing and get the sleep that I need.

Remember, different things trigger depression. It’s important to continue to try to recognize what makes it worse or brings it on. Some things that has helped me figure out some of my triggers is:

  • Research on how depression works and what typically can trigger it’s onset


  • Talking with other people that also have depression for support and encouragement and to understand how it can affect other people


  • Meditating regularly to begin to recognize how my body feels, both physically and emotionally (and mentally)


We have to begin and continue to take care of our bodies and any illnesses we may have, especially mental illness.







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I absolutely adore scented things! I love to stop in the stores and smell the fresh flowers that they have for sale and almost all of the candles and incense. It makes me feel so good inside. I feel so relaxed when I find ones that I really enjoy the scent of. Technically speaking, I do this outdoors also, such as fresh cut grass, hay bales, farms {not everything on a farm smells nice}, flowers, rose bushes, and the scent of rain.

When I have the means, I prefer to buy Yankee Brand. I once got one many years ago while we lived in Guam and I was obsessed with it! That jarred candle lasted me ages and I was so sad when it was used up. The scent was Roses and it smelled amazing!

My next favorite choice – and still a really good quality candle – is Better Homes and Gardens!  I only recently found out about their candles and got the scent of “Crisp Fall Leaves” back in Autumn of last year. I actually have only burned it once because while I had it out for display a few months ago, I could faintly smell it as I passed by even without lighting it. And now that I don’t have it where I can easily walk past it, I sometimes just randomly go pick it up and smell it and that makes me happy.

As far as warmers go, there are so many cute kinds! 🙂

Right now I am using ScentSationals wax melts in apple scent and am really enjoying it! I find it nice because I can get them easier due to how inexpensive they are, yet it really does fill the room with fragrant smells!

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To-Do List Help


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One thing that I struggle with is getting easily overwhelmed with daily tasks. This consists of everything from cleaning to cooking to business related items. Honestly I just stand still and look around wondering where to start and trying not to break down. It’s so frustrating! The only thing that has ever worked for me has been to make a To-Do List. I’ve played around with different formats, from listing a few tasks at a time to putting time limits on each so I wouldn’t feel so overwhelmed.

If anybody else goes through a similar situation of not knowing what to do or where to start, I highly recommend using a dry erase board! I have found it so helpful to be able to jot down some chores and check them off or cross through them when I finish it. Sometimes I get creative and use different colors of markers for different items on my list. I’ve also used magnets to move from one item to the next to change things up some. Check out these dry erase boards to help you in your daily life!

Don’t forget to put self-care on your To-Do List!




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Apps and Support

Great Meditation App

I came across a meditation website and app last year when I was looking to get some relief from my depression symptoms. It is called Calm. I started out with the free version which includes many guided meditations. I ended up getting a subscription to have access to the full content that Calm has to offer. Downloading this app has been the best decision I have ever made! There are guided that are categorized by topic, such as focus, varying emotions, anxiety, stress relief, relationships, college, and so much more.

One especially helpful set of meditations that I love is the “7 Days of Calm,” which introduces you to meditation. “Body Scan” is also super important because you learn how to focus on how your body is feeling and learn how to relax your muscles one section at a time.

Along with these wonderful meditations, Calm offers a music section that includes both relaxation music and focus instrumentals. There is also a section titled “Sleep Stories.” Here you will find a wide variety of essentially bedtime stories narrated by various people. This has helped me to relax before bed and I have read that some people that usually have trouble sleeping has benefited greatly from listening to these stories.

If you have children and would like to introduce them to meditating and helping them to understand their own emotions, the Calm app and website has special meditations geared towards children and teens.

I highly recommend checking it out and let me know what you think!

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